I don’t know what is happening but most of the time now I think about awakening or enlightment or getting the understanding. I do have more knowledge though, feeling as if I understand what is supposed to happen. My experience has been that it far surpasses what I think it will be. I then get very frustrated in that I know where I am going now but it is at a snail’s pace.

I’ve taken up watching videos of people who have awakened. The best of the lot is Buddha at the Gas Pump. It is run by Rick Archer who I use to work for a long time ago. The second website is called Never Not Here. It is a little more intellectual, sometimes discussing the finer aspects of the mind but still worth the price (free). The third site I am about to start watching is called the Urban Guru Cafe. Rick recommended it and that’s good enough for me.

Watching these videos is awesome in the fact that these people are not saints or gurus, they are just like me. It gives me hope that I too will reach the goal. After reaching their goal they explain that their experience continues to expand and deepen, which sounds like a journey I want to take. I will continue to talk about these sites as I go forward because for right now it is where I get my inspiration.